sorry to start this post off in such a depressing fashion, especially after not blogging for the past 2 days. i'm sure you all feel like hearing about my issues.
Monday, May 31, 2010
just one of those things about my life.
i slept horribly last night due to some major anxiety. i know that dave's job promotion is a great thing overall for us, but i can't help but be stressed and nervous about the changes in his work schedule and the amount of hours he will be away from me. i might sound like a crazy, over-reliant person, but i don't really have any friends where we live and it gets lonely for me a lot. i love staying home with my kids and wouldn't trade the time i have with them for anything, but that doesn't mean it's easy for me. the friends that i do have all live so far away and i basically survive socially through the phone and facebook. i've been told (more like lectured) numerous amounts of times (by way too many people) that i need to join a mommy group. i can't really explain why i haven't, but something holds me back. i don't particularly like where we live and do not see myself here for the rest of my life. maybe that's it. maybe i don't want any attachments here because i want to get out so bad? hm.